Down the memory lane, bollywood style!!

Havent written anything here in 13 years...its a good time to restart something that makes me feel better...writing! So, what I am going to do is pen down my emotions as I look back at my journey with Priya, using some of my favorite bollywood songs. This is an emotional post - straight from my heart...it has to come out somewhere...so writing it all out.

2009:
Context: After having my share of rejections in love life, was finally ready for arrange marriage, and was cautiously optimistic to fall in love :)
Music: RHTDM Rain Theme...

2010:
Context: About to meet her for the first time
"Ye kiska hai chehra jise main har ek phool mein dekhta hun, ye kiski hai awaaz jisko na sun ke bhi main sun raha hun, kaisi ye aahatein aa rahi hain, kaise ye khwaab dikhla rahi hai.....mere dil bataa kaun hai aa raha, kyun hawa aaj yun gaa rahi hai...ga rahi hai....ga rahi hai" Hear Lata ji's "aa aaaa aa"....in the background.

2011:
Context: Arrange marriage and courtship
"Maana sabse tu haseen hai husn waali, maana sabke tu dilon mein basne waali....haan haan hai nasha ada hai nakhrewaali, par taarefon se nahi tu maan-ne waali.....khaamosh dil na zor se dhadakna, dikh na jaaye haye usse tera tadapnna, mere haal pe hai muskurane waali, taarefon se nahi tu maan-ne waali"

2012:
Context: Both fallen in love :)
"Pehle pehle pyaar kiii pehli raat yaad rahegi, phoolon ki is sheher ki mulakat yaad rahegi....kaash yahin saari umar yunhi jaaye beet mitwa, aage aage chalein hum peeche peeche preet mitwaaaa...."

2013:
Context: Ishan's birth
"Khul ke socho aao...pankh zara failao...rang zara bikhrao...chalo chalo chalo chalo naye khwaab bun lein....he aye aye ae....he aye ae aaye ae...he aye aye ae....heyeyeyeye aye ae ae...bum bum bole masti mein dole...bum bum bole masti mein tu dol re"
Fun Fact: Hum dono ko Taare Zameen Par itni achhi lagi thi ki Ishan name almost final tha tabhi se :)

2014 - 2017:
Context: Parenting Ishan + Priya pursuing masters + Rahul busy in job = Reality of Married Life
"Wafaadari ki wo rasmein, nibhayenge hum tum kasme, ek bhi saans zindagi ki jab tak ho apne bas mein...jab koi baat bigad jaaye, jab koi mushkil pad jaaye, tum dena saath mera o humnawaaa....na koi hai na koi tha zindagi mein tumhare siwa, tum dena saath mera o humnawaaaa..."

2018 - 2020:
Context: Completed her masters + got job + bought house = Happy Priya + Love w/ Rahul re-ignited ;)
"Khili chandni jaisa ye badan janam mila tumko, mann mein socha tha jaisa roop tera aaya nazar humko.....sitam khuli khuli ye sanam gori gori ye baahein karti hain yun....hume tumne jab gale lagaya tab ho hi gaye hum to Hamma Hamma, Hamma Hamma Hamma..."

2021:
Context: Beginning of the end - Diagnosis and major surgery
"Jag ke jo swaami ho....itni to araj suno...hain path mein andhiyaare, de do vardaan mein ujiyare....o paalanhaare nirgun aur nyaare, tumre bin hamra kauno naahi....hamri uljhan suljhao bhagwan, tumre bin hamra kauno naahi.."

2022:
Context: We knew that it may be time soon
"O maahi ve, O maahi ve....maahi mainu chhadeyo naa ke tere bin dil naiyo lagna...jithe vi tu chalna ae maahi main tere pichhe pichhe chalna...tu jee sakdi nai....main jee sakda nai....koi dusri main sharta vi rakhda nahi....kya tere bajo mera....sachiya mohabbata ve o maahi kithe aur naiyo milna.."

2023:
Context: ...................
"Kuchh paakar khona hai, kuchh khokar paana hai, jeewan ka matlab to aana aur jaana hai....parchhaiiyan reh jaati, reh jaati nishaani hai....zindagi aur kuch bhi nahi teri meri kahaani hai"



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Added on 8/29/2023:

Context: I collected Priya's ashes today to be taken to India tomorrow by in-laws. My parents will do the visarjan at Varanasi thereafter.
During my drive back from funeral house to home, there she sat again in our car's front seat...for the very last time, this time just inside a box...and at the very same moment, the car aptly put words to my emotions by playing this song through the shuffled playlist:

"Ab hai saamne, ise chhoo loon zara.......marr jaun ya jee lun zaraaaa.......khushiyan choom loon, ya ro lun zara.......marr jaun ya jee lun zaraaaa......."