Havent written anything here in 13 years...its a good time to restart something that makes me feel better...writing!
So, what I am going to do is pen down my emotions as I look back at my journey with Priya, using some of my favorite bollywood songs.
This is an emotional post - straight from my heart...it has to come out somewhere...so writing it all out.
2009:
Context: After having my share of rejections in love life, was finally ready for arrange marriage, and was cautiously optimistic to fall in love :)
Music: RHTDM Rain Theme...
2010:
Context: About to meet her for the first time
"Ye kiska hai chehra jise main har ek phool mein dekhta hun, ye kiski hai awaaz jisko na sun ke bhi main sun raha hun, kaisi ye aahatein aa rahi hain, kaise ye khwaab dikhla rahi hai.....mere dil bataa kaun hai aa raha, kyun hawa aaj yun gaa rahi hai...ga rahi hai....ga rahi hai" Hear Lata ji's "aa aaaa aa"....in the background.
2011:
Context: Arrange marriage and courtship
"Maana sabse tu haseen hai husn waali, maana sabke tu dilon mein basne waali....haan haan hai nasha ada hai nakhrewaali, par taarefon se nahi tu maan-ne waali.....khaamosh dil na zor se dhadakna, dikh na jaaye haye usse tera tadapnna, mere haal pe hai muskurane waali, taarefon se nahi tu maan-ne waali"
2012:
Context: Both fallen in love :)
"Pehle pehle pyaar kiii pehli raat yaad rahegi, phoolon ki is sheher ki mulakat yaad rahegi....kaash yahin saari umar yunhi jaaye beet mitwa, aage aage chalein hum peeche peeche preet mitwaaaa...."
2013:
Context: Ishan's birth
"Khul ke socho aao...pankh zara failao...rang zara bikhrao...chalo chalo chalo chalo naye khwaab bun lein....he aye aye ae....he aye ae aaye ae...he aye aye ae....heyeyeyeye aye ae ae...bum bum bole masti mein dole...bum bum bole masti mein tu dol re"
Fun Fact: Hum dono ko Taare Zameen Par itni achhi lagi thi ki Ishan name almost final tha tabhi se :)
2014 - 2017:
Context: Parenting Ishan + Priya pursuing masters + Rahul busy in job = Reality of Married Life
"Wafaadari ki wo rasmein, nibhayenge hum tum kasme, ek bhi saans zindagi ki jab tak ho apne bas mein...jab koi baat bigad jaaye, jab koi mushkil pad jaaye, tum dena saath mera o humnawaaa....na koi hai na koi tha zindagi mein tumhare siwa, tum dena saath mera o humnawaaaa..."
2018 - 2020:
Context: Completed her masters + got job + bought house = Happy Priya + Love w/ Rahul re-ignited ;)
"Khili chandni jaisa ye badan janam mila tumko, mann mein socha tha jaisa roop tera aaya nazar humko.....sitam khuli khuli ye sanam gori gori ye baahein karti hain yun....hume tumne jab gale lagaya tab ho hi gaye hum to Hamma Hamma, Hamma Hamma Hamma..."
2021:
Context: Beginning of the end - Diagnosis and major surgery
"Jag ke jo swaami ho....itni to araj suno...hain path mein andhiyaare, de do vardaan mein ujiyare....o paalanhaare nirgun aur nyaare, tumre bin hamra kauno naahi....hamri uljhan suljhao bhagwan, tumre bin hamra kauno naahi.."
2022:
Context: We knew that it may be time soon
"O maahi ve, O maahi ve....maahi mainu chhadeyo naa ke tere bin dil naiyo lagna...jithe vi tu chalna ae maahi main tere pichhe pichhe chalna...tu jee sakdi nai....main jee sakda nai....koi dusri main sharta vi rakhda nahi....kya tere bajo mera....sachiya mohabbata ve o maahi kithe aur naiyo milna.."
2023:
Context: ...................
"Kuchh paakar khona hai, kuchh khokar paana hai, jeewan ka matlab to aana aur jaana hai....parchhaiiyan reh jaati, reh jaati nishaani hai....zindagi aur kuch bhi nahi teri meri kahaani hai"
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Added on 8/29/2023:
Context: I collected Priya's ashes today to be taken to India tomorrow by in-laws. My parents will do the visarjan at Varanasi thereafter.
During my drive back from funeral house to home, there she sat again in our car's front seat...for the very last time, this time just inside a box...and at the very same moment, the car aptly put words to my emotions by playing this song through the shuffled playlist:
"Ab hai saamne, ise chhoo loon zara.......marr jaun ya jee lun zaraaaa.......khushiyan choom loon, ya ro lun zara.......marr jaun ya jee lun zaraaaa......."
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Beautiful SKD !! Adding a few lines from one of my favourite songs as well....
ReplyDeleteRaah Pe Kante Bikhre agar
Uspe to phir bhi chalna hi hai
Shaam Chhupale Suraj magar
Raat ko ek din Dhalna hi hai
Rut ye tal jayegi
Himmat rang layegi
Subha phir aayegi
Hoooo
Thanks Rohini!! I never heard this para of this song..
Deletehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eyG4t4Med0c&feature=youtu.be Another song from list
ReplyDeleteThanks Vandana! Priya introduced this and many other beautiful western songs to me as well...
DeleteBeautifully written, as always. After reading this, I had a burst of emotions - from feeling excited at the start, to being loved and to finally feel the extreme voidness and pain towards the end.
ReplyDeleteI have one song from the movie "The Sky is Pink" called "For Aisha" running in my head as if Bhabhi would have sung it when "We knew that it may be time soon" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bR8sE9ubyTI
She will always be loved and missed deeply..
Thanks Summey! Yes, that song's lyrics are so apt...
DeleteI just cant stop listening to this song....its lyrics literally sums up what Priya would have been feeling in her last months....thanks so much for sharing :)
DeleteRahul ki Priya...aur uski ye prem kahaani
ReplyDeleteAank bhar aayi, Jab suni uske hi zubaani... ❤️😢
Priya will always stay alive through your memories!!
aaye haaye Richa ji....bahut bahut dhanyawaad :)
DeleteBeautiful way to remember a beautiful soul and your journey with her.
ReplyDeleteFor all of us who knew her this song comes to my mind to cope with the huge loss..
Aae zindagi gale laga le..
humne bhi tere har ek gam ko gale se lagaya hai..haina.
Thanks Shilpi...nice song :)
DeleteDost, so heartwarming to be a part of your journey through these melodies. Thank you for sharing. Anand movie ka dialogue yaad aata hai "Babumoshai, zindagi aur maut uparwale ke haath hai jahanpanah. Usse na toh aap badal sakte hain na main. Hum sab toh rangmanch ki kathputhliyan hain jinki dor uparwale ki ungliyon main bandhi hain. Kab, kaun, kaise uthega yeh koi nahi bata sakta hai." To phir, aise hi gun gunate raho.. looking forward to your next blog post.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comments; and the movie's apt words!!
Delete"Where words fail, music speaks.."
ReplyDeleteThese melodies took us through the loving years.
हर शाम आँखों पर तेरा आँचल लहराए
हर रात यादों की बारात ले आए मैं साँसों लेता हूँ तेरी खुशबू आती है
एक महका-महका सा पैगाम लाती है
मेरे दिल की धड़कन भी तेरे गीत गाती है
पल पल दिल के पास तुम रहती हो…
Wow, yeah this is an evergreen melody...thanks Milu
DeleteFew lines- “ Jab Jis Waqt Kisi ka yaar judaa hota hai
ReplyDeleteKuch na pucho yaaron Dil ka haal bura hota hai
Dil pe yaadon k jaise teer chalte hain”
Diye Jalte hai….
Miss you Priya😒
Nice one bhabhi!!
DeleteRahul Jee this tribute is so heart warming and creative! Songs are the best way to express ourselves and you did a beautiful job here 🎶🎶🎶🎶
ReplyDeleteThx Bhaiya!!
Deleteरीजू (राहुल निशित) का ब्लॉग पढ़ने के बाद मुझे भी प्रिया के बारे में अपने मन की अभिव्यक्ति की इच्छा हुई, मगर इस उधेड़बुन में था कि हिंदी में इसको अवतरीत करूं या फिर अंग्रेजी में, मगर काफी सोच विचार के बाद अपनी भावनाओं को हिंदी में मैं उतराने का साहस जूटा पाया।
ReplyDeleteआज भी जब पूजा संपन्न करता हूं तो अनायास ही माँग बैठता हूं, कि हे ! भगवान मेरी बहू प्रिया की हर बीमारी से रक्षा करना और उसे लंबी उम्र देना। उसको सपरिवार सुखमय जीवन प्रदान करना। क्या करूं, पिछले दो सालों में भगवान से यहीं माँगने की आदत बन गई थी। हर खाली समय में यहीं माँगा करता था। हर ऑपरेशन के पहले भगवान को याद करता हूं और आज भी स्वत: उसी माँग को दोहराने लगता हूं। मगर...काश....!
झूठी प्रशंसा करना उसकी आदत नहीं थी। एक बार ईशान के लिए डोसा बनाते हुए उसको भी खिलाया था, मगर मेरे तीन बार पूछने पर भी उसका जवाब यही था... पापा, अच्छा नहीं बना है। :) मुझे बुरा नहीं लगा था। वो हमेंशा चाहती थी, हर कोई अच्छा करे, बहुत अच्छा करे। झूठी प्रशंसा कर उसके प्रयास को विराम नहीं देना चाहती थी, ऐसी थी मेरी बहू, प्रिया।
वापस आने के समय जब मैंने कहा - प्रिया जा रहा हूँ, बाय प्रिया, तो मुश्किल से कह पाई थी, बाय पापा। मम्मी भी बहुत मुश्किल से बोल पाई थी और हाथ के थिरकने से जता रही थी - पांव छूने में असमर्थ हूं। मम्मी, माफ़ कर दीजियेगा. प्रणाम माँ.......
माँ, अगले जन्म में फिर आपके घर आऊँगी और तब भी इतना ही प्यार दिजियेगा, ख़ूब सारा प्यार, मम्मी कुछ गलती हो गई हो तो क्षमा कर दिजियेगा, बाय मम्मी............और इस तरह एक कल-कल करती हुई, पहाड़ों, चट्टानों से टकराती, आगे बढ़ती हुई नदी, सदा के लिए शांत सागर में विलीन हो गई।
बस रह गई यादें, अंतः पटल पर.... यादों की शृंखलाओं को शब्दों में पिरोकर निर्मित माला तुमको समर्पित है, प्रिया.... । जहाँ भी रहो ख़ुश रहो, ख़ूब ख़ुश, ख़ूब ख़ुश......
'पापा'
Wooooow.....I am speechless.
DeleteSo nicely written! Aankhon mei fir se aansu aa gye 😒 sahi mei aise hi thi Priya- bahut achi aur bahut hi positive! Words r less to express what we lost!
DeleteEk dum man ko chho jani wale shabd likhe hain uncle ji ne.I can't stop my tears.
DeleteI will always cherish my long chit chat sessions with Priya, playing board games all day long,preparing food, trips, watching our kind of movies together and many more things we did as family.
Sourabh has Rahul, Saahil has Ishan but my beloved friend has left me.. will miss you always :(
Tears started rolling down my cheeks as I read the post, and then if that wasn’t enough Uncle’s post made them roll down even more. When I met Priya at first it didn’t feel like we were meeting for the first time. That simplicity and a sense of belonging made me instantly close to her. In such a young age both Priya and Rahul have demonstrated so much clarity, wisdom, love, and strength that makes them so very special! Priya we will miss you and your beautiful smiling face! Song that comes to my mind is from the movie Taal “Nahi Sammie Tu”
ReplyDeleteThank you Didi!!
DeleteMiss you Priya!!
ReplyDeleteWe miss our friend who started as one of my best friends wife. We realised later that she was a great friend to us. All the boards games we played - stopping only to feed ourselves and the kids are one of the greatest memories. The trips we took together and the time we spent together will always be etched in my memory. Phrases like - Ishan, Can you explain yourself.... or .... Chaaaaar during Catan......and more will be remembered forever. I sincerely wish we had a longer run together. You were one of the best things to have happened to my friend and I thank you for that. Om Shanti!
Yeah, can never forget her "Can u please explain yourself Ishan?" when he was just 4 years old. All the board games.....especially during Covid....still dont know how she always won in 7 wonders!!!
ReplyDeleteThis is so beautifully written bhaiya. The words reflect what she meant for you and despite of being a nobody, this brings in so many emotions in me right now! I have heard so much about you, ishan and bhabhi from summey, I really wished i had a chance to know her more.
ReplyDeleteand I just read what uncle and everyone has written about her! Bhabhi must be loved so much! and she would have loved so much too!
Hi, thanks so much for your note...but it came as Anonymous...can you please tell me who you are?
DeleteThis must be Swati. :)
DeleteThank you for writing such a beautiful note.
Thanks Swati!
DeleteBeautifully written Nishit!! Brings in a gush of emotions though haven’t met Priya.. she was definitely beautiful, thoughtful, loving, caring and much loved..
ReplyDeleteThanks Divya!
DeleteDear Priya. May be some day we will meet again.
ReplyDeleteतो क्या हुआ जुदा हुए,
मगर है खुशी मिले तो थे
तो क्या हुआ मुड़े रास्ते
कुछ दूर संग चले तो थे
दोबारा मिलेंगे किसी मोड़ पे
जो बाकी है वो बात होगी कभी
चलो आज चलते है हम
फिर मुलाकात होगी....
छुपा लूंगा मै हंस के आंसू मेरे
ये तेरी खुशी से तो ज्यादा नहीं।
Thank you Kavita Mousi!!
DeleteBeautiful! The way you ended the blog is really heart touching! I don’t think all husbands can be as expressive as you are ! Shows how blissful Priya and you were and how you both were the perfect couple.
ReplyDeleteThanks Deepak :)
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